i've migrated to xangaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

dont worry i am still in malaysia.

hahaha

please do change the link IF u have linked me.

if u have not, u can start now!

by just clicking.. this this this this this

and paste this add :

http://www.xanga.com/jialejiale

i'll see you there! :)

P.S : if u were wondering why the sudden change, i have no idea, but let me tell you, xanga has SO MANY EMOTICONS!

okay bye.

tagged by xiao and jiasheen! feel obliged to do this but not really in the writing mood, so here goes. dont expect much!

and also, i might add, there are lotsa inside jokes. hehe sorry!

Edit : another story coming up. cos someone claimed i stole the idea. booo, but biology calls for me, so prolly some other time! meanwhile, have a nice coffee and read my fairytaleeee :)

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It was a gloomy day. The clouds hung heavily as I stacked up all the papers on the laboratory table. Bad time to rain, I said to the cow sitting graciously on the table. I took a peek at the pink Guess watch carved with words "I LOVE YOU" David bought for me on Valentine's Day. He should be here any minute.

Just then, Mr.GrumpyDane came in, carrying what I dreaded most. 20 reports to be done by the end of the week. Give me a break, I screamed in my heart. But nevertheless I still love my job.

As if our minds are linked, David called right that instant. This is one of the reasons why I love my husband. He always happen to be there at the right place, right time. Mr.GrumpyDane shot me a gruff look and stormed out of the room with the uninvited reports.

Being gleefully happy, I rushed down the flight of stairs and was THIS close to crushing my backbone when I toppled over a box that was in the way. The clumsiness I've picked up when I was younger still remains, after almost 30 years!

I felt all secure and new when David held me in a warm embrace. Heavenly bliss, THIS is what I needed after a long day at work, I thought to myself while indulging in that sweet, sweet moment.

The drive home was rather quiet, unlike the usual chit-chatting and catching up on each other's day.

What is wrong?

Charlene and Christine came running towards me when the Mercs pulled up at the driveway. "Mummy and Dadddy! They are homeeee!" Both of them screamed at the top of their lungs in unison, their pigtails bouncing up and down as they jumped with joy. They looked so blissful, their hands covered with flour and baking powder.

Ah, childhood days, how I miss them so!

"Baking cheese cake again, my dears?" I grinned and smacked my lips. The baking genes definitely came from David, for I never knew how to cook a Maggi Mee when I was, what, 16?

"Mummy! Mummy! You HAVE to try the awesomely baked strawberry cheese cake!" said Charlene. "Daddy! You too!" Christine chipped in.

My lips formed a smile of contentment. I have everything that I've wished for. A job that I love, a doting husband and two adorable girls. What else can a woman ask for?

"Hurry up, dear. You are going to be late!"

Immediately I snapped back to reality. Picking up the luggage bags, I ushered the kids to the car, nibbled on a piece of cake, grabbed my passport and air ticket and headed to the airport. The two C's were busy snoring at the back seat while David lamely explained to me why is the sky blue.

How am I going to let go of all these, I sighed.

The car came to a halt and I spotted a girl in a red halter, looking all gorgeous and sizzling hot.

"Evonne!" I called out. She turned, brushing her black silky hair on Alvin's face. As I walked towards her, Xiao Yu screamed our names from 10 metres away, carrying her 1 year old baby girl, Sheepy in her arms. We exchanged hugs and kisses and walked into the airport, our husbands loyally tagged behind us.

Vivid memories came rushing to me like a wind. The airport. The life-changing day. Gate 24. David proposed to me on the day I came back from the states after a graduation party in Harvard U. The shrieks of joy and tears that streamed down my cheeks was undeniably humiliating, yet the simple gesture touched my heart and soul, till today.

The 99 red roses and 1 white one, the 20-carat diamond ring, the poem that took him 5 days 5 nights without sleep to write it, the I LOVE YOU card that he made, everything, simply everything, remains fresh in my mind. The feeling, it is still so strong.

And then I heard familiar voices. One that I have known for 29 years. And there they were, happily gobbling down steaming hot yee mien and sotong kangkung. Funny, I thought. Why would KLIA sell food like these? Little did I know, they actually brought those food from home, just to revive those days, where we always have our Thursday lunches, and yee mien was the all-time favourite.

"Hey guys! Ai Tert, your face is straight now! Gosh, Su Lynn, you never grew!! Stephanieeeeee! You are still consuming papaya and mangoes?" I exclaimed excitedly. Ai Tert's husband was carrying 4 guitars in hand, Su Lynn hasn't gotten married yet, Stephanie and Mr.Blackman have 5 kids?! Things have definitely changed, so much.

"Now, where is Wai Jean and Hui Yin? Late.. AGAIN?"

Then, from afar, I saw six kids chasing each other, causing much havoc. Andrew and Wai Jean then came into the picture, screaming and running after them. We giggled stiffly but deeply sympathize the dilemma they are in. Okay, 7 down. Where's the eighth person to make us whole again, as ORIGINS? However immature you might think we are, it is a cool name!

Hui Yin arrived shortly after that. Seeing eight of us together, it made me weep a little. It has been a while, since we last hung out. Husbands can be seen exchanging name cards, Su Lynn and Evonne doing their usual cam-whoring ritual, Stephanie feeding her youngest one, Behphanie, while the rest passed photographs around. And then it struck me, high school is what I miss most.

"Passengers of MH 707 to Hawaii, the gate is now open for boarding. Kindly proceed to Gate 14."

Christine tugged at my skirt and insisted on taking a picture before I leave for the one week holiday. I reluctantly gave the camera my 70% smile. David embraced me from the back, I felt so secure in his arms. Leaving my precious kids behind and my beloved husband made me twinge. My heart instantly sank.

Departing is never easy. As I walked into Gate 14 with Wai Jean yapping away about her neverending One Tree Hill series, I turned and took a last glance at those sober faces. I crumpled to the ground, not literally, of course. Seven loving husbands and uncountable kids were waving frantically at us, awaiting our return.

I'll be back safely, my kids. I'll be back for you, David.

havent been ranting much in this blog so i guess i deserve writing a depressed post.
it has been a while..

think i've been quite cold and lost in my own thoughts lately. everything is so jumbled up, i start remembering things that i thought has disappeared from my memory. i feel special feelings surging in me, feelings that i never knew existed. i start feeling all stupid and worthless and lazy and lame againnnnnn. i am starting to think too much again. everything haunts meeeeeeeeeeeee. :(

why is it so haaaaaaaaarrdd to make everyone happy? do you think I like to see you people being dissatisfied with the decisions and all? i dont like being put in a position like this. it totallly sucks. i've got my own issues to deal with too, so give me a breaaak.

i get irritated and annoyed easily these days. isnt a good sign , is it? my black eye rings are getting worse. my mummy dearest pointed that out to me in the car and that was when it struck me, i have got to sleep earlier!

sometimes when opportunities are right before our very eyes, we tend to expect more than what is given to us, and more often than not we wont be satisfied until we get whatever we want. and because of this, we often face disappointment and whine and whine and whine about what we failed to get. but then again, if you look closely into the matter and analyze properly with your mind and soul, the blame still comes back to us, no matter how much we deny it.

why was i so blurred last time? i should have moved on earlier.. instead of clinging on to the thread, only because i wanted to believe there's hope at the end of the rainbow after all. and now when i'm finally able to let go, i'm caught by a stir of emotions. why was i so ignorant? vivid memories still linger in my mind. those small little conversations that we had. those playful teasings. those lame jokes cracked together. those deliriously happy laughter. mmhmm, they perk me up.

i never got hold of it and needless to say, never did i pay much attention to it. u will never know what you've got until you lose it, such a famous saying, isnt it? yet it applies to me so well that i think i have to marrry that statement soon enough. looking at it, slipping away from my very bare hands, makes me feel nothing but miserable.

but then again, i'm only human.

self-consoling works at its best at times like these.

see, i was planning to sleep at 11.30 because my eyes was literally just one line, but then. darlie had to do its trick. its ilke my bible, it keeps me sane and awake whenever my head is buried in the books during the wee hours in order to be not-so-unprepared for exams.

and you should know what happens whenever i'm tired.

dont tell me you dont.

i.. will..

hee i dont know, do everything

so anyways, i dont know what this post is about but i just felt like writing something so therefore i'll write something. here goes.

something something something something something something something something something i think its starting to be lame something something something something gosh why am i even doing this something something something something something.

lalala.

i hate being so indecisive. the incident today made me feel so inferior.

stop hanging on to the thin thread, i tell myself. but is it even THERE?

quit thinking about him. clearly he's not interested.

snap back to reality. floating in the clouds isn't going to make me ( or anyone, for that matter ) feel better.

this is such a crappy post but i'm going on anyway.

i dont want to grow up i dont want to leave high school i just wanna stay in my comfort zone and snuggle under the silk blanket and be lame.

its so disturbing, having to be labelled as stupid. when the day has been so gloomy.

being in a toilet with 4 guys is awkward. please tell me you feel the same.

the sense of belonging is not here. blending into a crowd filled with enthusiasm to learn more about physics is hard. personally not feeeling connected with physics yet planned to build interest in that subject turned out to be a failure. however, psycology earned a place in my list of courses-to-choose-from.

whatever happened to the love and care from all over the world?

i feel so insecure.

dont start if you dont plan to end it.

its annoying.

stop doing it.

who would have thought that we would get along so well?
in the class of 5delta, segregration is unheard of.
honestly, when i was put into class 4delta '05, i dreaded it.
because it was so obvious that we were spilted into two big groups, the chinese stream and the malay stream. the first few weeks we were oblivious to our new classmates' presence, only mixing with the same group of friends.

then, it happened.

we grew closer each day, lending a helping hand whenever its needed, going through thick and thin together, cracking occasionally endlessly..
the bond is just so strong.

anyways, moving on. class trip. i just have the tingling feeling that its gonna be a emo post. grin.

it was held at FRIM, Kepong, Kuala Lumpur. being there has been a marvellous experience, what more, the company was great superb superb superb superb! needless to say, everything made the whole trip worthwhile AND memorable. from mountains to waterfall to streams to hills, we stuck together like a splat of glue.

everyone has two sides, so they say. this statement was proven right. those guys in my class who always tease and make fun of practically everything (:p) showed a totally different personality, one that i'll never forget. they are such great gentlemen :) helping us girls up and down the mountains, protecting us and keeping us safe, assuring me that everything will be okay..etc.

and then there were those girls, providing fun and laughter, cracking lame jokes together ( more like just me haha ), just simply have fun. and then there's Mr.Jacob who has sexy legs :p ahha. he's really one of the best teachers i've known.

basically, my points sum it all up - we're together as one.

everyone is so unique in different ways that makes the class such a special bunch of people. everyone is so united in every way. everyone cast aside their fears and gave their best shot in the activities. everyone made the trip successful.

even though it was only a 2 days 1 night stay, but i assure you, we've become closer than ever. our closeness is something words cant describe. no matter how many Oxford dictionaries you use. its something that has to be felt in the heart. and we're all feeling it ( or is it just me? )

i just hope these friendships are everlasting.

to those who were in the organizing commiteee, doubt you guys will see this, but receive this load of thankyou's from me :)
u guys have been simply great.

i'm just so blessed and honoured to be in this class. i'm so blissfully happy, that i can end my high school with pride. and joy. and a heart filled with dear memories.


the compulsory CRACK picture.


you guys are the best.

" and if, i should ever go away,
  well then close your eyes and try,
  to feel the way we do today,
  and then if you can remember..

  keep smilling, keep shining,
  knowing you can always count on me, for sure
  that's what friends are for.
  for good times and bad times,
  i'll be on your side forever more.
  that's what friends are for. "

this is not the end.

hahaha. i've been tagged.
hahahaha. weishiung, look at this. I'M DOING IT! hah. i proved u wrong. since when i dont update my blog??

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what?! dont look at me like this! okayyy okay so i admit, that statement might be a tad untrue, but.. haiyah the point is, i'm updating

anyways, whee. i've too many candidates for this category laaaa. :( such a tough time deciding who who who who and who. pffts. but its now time to reveal the truth.

*dummm dubdubdub dummmm*
( if u couldnt guess that right, its the sound of drums rollling :p )

lalalalalalala.
in my very humble opinion,
i shall now present to you the..

he's soooper talented. plus, a very nice friend. to me, he's like an A++++ guy. had had some issues last time ( fyi i was never together wif him, not THAT kind of issues, hee ), it hurts to even think about it but things have definitely been better. yet sometimes i ask myself, have i moved on with my life, or am i still hanging onto the thread, so thin that it bears no hope at all? nevertheless, he's a friend i will remember for life.

next, lets check out

 
hmm. cant really see the face but he's one of the cutest guys i've ever met. :) i used to be reeeeeaallllyy close to him but somehow lost contact after i quit the science tuition in form3. though we havent been seeing/talking to each other for almost one year, and only met him again few months back, we talk as though those miles apart ( okay lah probably just a few kilometres ;p ) never existed. he makes me feel comfortable just being around him. those kind of feelings, you know? very homey. can simply talk to him about anything :) he's definitely one of a kind.

and then, i have..


okay lah, i think it would be winkeat yuanchun firdaus jiale, haha i dont know!
i'm VERY fickle minded, ask me tomorrow for another set of guys and i'll give you on the spot! yikes. its not a good thing, is it :( but i will stick to only one husband :p

P.S : jinkit! now i will always remember you as a fren, regardless of whether i forgot that we were once classmates in form1 :p and since you claimed that its my fault, sorry that i threw sweet wrappers at you then and got punished by Mr Ang to sweep the floor. hahaha.

P.P.S : just for the sake of mentioning his name, boonheng is vain.

edit : omgness, i totally forgot about kahleong! nevermind, i shall wait for the next meme :p

today was a gloomy day for some, but also a glorious day for others.
the SPM 2005 results was released today.

while those ex fifth formers waited in anticipation for their results, i knew it would be hard on some of them if the results didnt turn out to be what they expected it to be.

and then it was time. cut long story short, teachers started arriving, and shouts of joy could be heard. i saw my friends crowding the tables, each of them had a worried look plastered on their faces. i had butterflies fluttering in my stomach all the while, as though i absorbed everyone's stress and tension and buried them inside me. i was REALLY freaking out. so many thoughts were flowing in my mind, what if he didnt do well? how will she react if things got screwed up?

and then it happened. some were despaired, some shed tears of joy, some were blissfully happy, some were numb and emotionless, some were downright dissapointed.

to those who did well, kudos to you. congrats. to those who did not, i feel your pain. but its over, no point hanging onto it. try harder next time :) you know your capabilities, you know you can do better than this.

and now, i really have to start bucking up and start studying.
i need more post-it notes to remind myself everywhere i go, especially the mirror. and this idiot box..
that spm is coming..
though uninvited.

omg! as the title suggests, i am very oh-my-godness'ing now! :D

ask me whyyyy. whoooohooo! :D

whheeeee!

whoooooooooo!

whaaaaaaaaaa!! :(:( the sky is blue today!

okay sorry.

:)

exams are overrrrr :) yayyyy! i'm contented. though very sleep deprived. omg!!!!!!!

yawnnn. omg!!!!!

made stupid mistakes in all my papers. omg!!!!

since everyone has blogged bout what happened to dear school, i only have one word to say - omg!!!

yo sup! omg!!

it has been threee gruelling months and life has beeeen tough, what with studies and all. siiiigh :( omg!

i miss my former school mates! omg..

i never knew a strong bond can just disappear into thin air in just a spilt second. oh my god...

i failed to appreciate friendships. ..negative-omg..

ignore me :)

ever wondered how life would be without faithful friends?

ever wondered how quiet life would be without faithful friends?

ever wondered how much noise u can reduce without faithful friends?

ever wondered how sane you can be without faithful crack AND lame friends?

ever wondered how much weight you can lose without faithful food-lover friends?

ever wondered how phone bills will cost lesser without faithful gossipy friends?

ever wondered how long your attention span in class will be without faithful talk-to-me! friends?

ever wondered how different life would be?

i had.

but never once did i regret knowing all of them.

mmmmmm life is beautiful :)

i love and heart my frens <3<3

by the way, happieee hols everyone! :)

call me a dongdong but..

what if i never get married in future? T_T

the thought of that makes me..laugh. you get my sarcasm.

i promiseeee i will be the best wife ever T_T i promise i wont have high demands T_T i promiseee i will only ask for 20-carat diamond rings, not 30 T_T i promiseee i will ask for only 12 bouquets of 999 roses ( you do the math ), not 24 T_T i loveeeeeeeeee youuu allll of you!! T_T i love kids too :(

i feeel insecure.

i want to scratch this stupid thought away.

someone please treat me like a princess.

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i hateeeeee obligations.

its not pure sincerity..

its not even coming from my heart anymore, you get what i mean?

someone please tell me whats the right thing to do.

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i dont want to grow up.

leaving my comfort zone, making choices, decisions..yadaaaa.

i never wanted to leave high school.

but we are now left with no choice.

how i wish we were the ones who drew our own life map.

i feeel nostalgic.

someone pleaseee tell me you feel my pain.

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things happen, things change.

friends come and go.

the widely-used term "friends forever" does not seeem real to me anymore.

the sweet bond forgotten, fond memories left behind, picking up new ones and setting aside the old.

human nature, you say?

something to ponder upon..

someone please make me believeee in friendships again.

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ah, life. sweeeeeeeeet life.

its a neverending cycle of rollercoaster rides.

going up down up down up down up down WHEEEEEEEEEE up down up down up down up down AAAAAAAAHHH up down up down up down WHEEEEEEEE AGAIN up down up down up down..haha okay i'll stop.

you get my point.

so many expectations to meet.

am keeping an open mind =)

i know i will make it.

i want to believe in myself.

someone please trust in me.

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i have a weird crave for sunsets and stars.

heckkk, i even shed some tears while looking at pictures of beautifully-taken sunsets.

someone pleaseeeeee tell me i'm a normal kid.

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